Tuesday, April 22, 2014

ask not what you can do for your country. ask what's for lunch.

so...I used to have a food blog.  mostly because I pretty much LIVED in the kitchen for the last 15 years.  i think feeding people might be one of my love languages?  which is great since i'm married to someone who doesn't care about food. at all. 
 
I do still like making food for people, but...I think my true love affair with food is kind of over.  I don't have my baking business anymore.  I don't want to do my food blog again.  ever.  sooo...is it funny that i'm currently working with my friend's catering company?  ha.  but even there, i'm doing more behind-the-scenes stuff than actual cooking...

also since i'm suuuper old now, I feel like everything I eat is trying to kill me.  ok, just all the yummy stuff ;)  like this:

so I generally eat pretty healthy...kind of like the 85/15 rule.  (not that i don't have a secret candy cupboard for emergencies...but everyone's got that, right?)  it's definitely worth it to keep my tummy in line, though - it hurts my stomach soooo bad when I eat low quality/too sugary food.  although having to think about what I eat is kind of a bummer.  but if I eat good, I feel good, so...

a lot of people related to me are gluten sensitive, dairy sensitive, etc.  but for me, as long as the gluten/dairy thing i'm eating is good quality (like a 4-ingredient sourdough bread or a preservative-free hard cheese), it doesn't bother me.  yogurt and ice cream DO kill my stomach, but I can live without those.  and I do usually use gluten-free pasta, since we can't taste the difference.  but I mostly just eat...real food.  I try for a combo of protein/carb/good fat for meals.  and then I use my skillz to kick it up a notch.  so there's still a lotta good food around here...just maybe a tiny bit healthier...

one thing that saves me is that I really like vegetables.  I mean, listen, NOTHING tastes as good as a twix bar or a big ole' piece of lasagna, but sometimes your tummy just needs to relax.  a bowl of steamed veggies with a few avocado chunks and a homemade dressing on top can help.  although pants totally doesn't agree.  hey, I'm just trying to not feel like my insides are attacking me.  quit judging my veggie bowls, PANTS.  and take your chocolate milkshake outta here...


Monday, April 21, 2014

i pledge allegiance to the band of mister schneebly

i love to dance.  like, REALLY love it.  of course, i'm terrible at it, everyone knows that.  but who cares!  i'm terrible at a lot of things i do on a daily basis, but i still do them ;)

I really think the biggest thing that pulled me out of feeling depressed was just moving my physical body.  yeah, exercise.  everyone talks about endorphins blah blah, but for ME, the key seemed to be that while I was exercising?  it was sooo much easier to set my thoughts to the side (like in a box) during that specific time.  then afterwards, your body/hormones are stimulated enough so your mind is better able to process the bigger picture, and the endorphins kick in and you start feeling some hope.  it just opened a whole new world for me, mentally.  it's weird, I know.*

ok, a rabbit trail...
so here's the thing. if you HATE exercising, maybe it just means you haven't found the right thing yet?  yoga is a very easy place to start if you have trouble believing your body isn't made for moving around a lot...it's just like stretching and breathing.  (and like loving and praying and sometimes finding yourself...but that comes later.) i have been teaching pants a few yoga moves, which is hilarious.  he is a dude's dude when it comes to fitness (hardcore!!  push yourself till it hurts!! yeaahh!!!), so seeing him doing slow bendy yoga moves and trying to breathe correctly is so funny to me.  he also gets reeaaally distracted by my yoga pants, which i pretend is irritating but secretly i like it...

ahem.  listen, I used to be a diehard too (kickboxing, sports, cardio classes, running till I wanted to die, ect), but am finding that's not really who i am anymore.  i have a lot of friends who are athletes or distance runners, and they are AWESOME.  i am constantly amazed by them!  but for ME, just getting my heart rate up like, 20 minutes a day, works fine.  i do think lifting weights can be really great for your body (like, normal lifting, not talking power lifting here), but you can also use your own body to increase your strength, just by doing things like push ups or pull ups or throwing your kids around.

aaand...back to dancing!
so, truth time:  NOTHING is as FUN as dancing around like a free bird.  NOTHING.  you know it, I know it.  i used to go to clubs sometimes like, in 1998, but there's NO WAY i would ever do that now.  now it's maybe at a concert.   and i haven't even BEEN to a decent live music show in an embarrassingly long time, you guys!  well, unless Disney counts.  oh my gosh, my life is so lame.  so...basically, i dance in private.

here's a super easy formula to try:

music + push back living room furniture = fun

that's it.  yes, it's totally embarrassing at first. yes, you are 38yrs old and way too old to be doing this, lol.  I started dancing around for like, a half hour at a time when no one else was home.  if you are too self-conscious, tell your kids to put on just dance 4 on the xbox, and DO IT WITH THEM.  (that game is so fun, you guys!  uh, i mean, not that I would know...)

since i am used to working out, when I dance at home, i usually end up turning it into more of a serious workout, combining it with high-impact aerobic moves, then I do some yoga and strength training afterwards if I feel like it.  you can even throw in a work out dvd if you need to (we all have those lying around, right?) and just mute it, and do the moves to music instead.   or...just DANCE!  for FUN!! 

good music is KEY.  find the tunes you love to jump around to.  i sometimes use pandora on my phone, but spotify is the best.  especially if you hook it up to the super sweet speaker your brother got you last year.  i like to put my pandora stations on mix, but only because it's funny to listen to austra and then classic beastie boys.  don't judge...

oh, also?  WEAR SOMETHING CUTE.  seriously.  my self esteem does not need to be huffing and puffing around in an oversized tee shirt and my baggy pink sweats.  not worth it.  I just wear $8 leggings and one of those long fitted-but-not-tight tank tops from target.  but it makes a difference!


* this information might be totally inaccurate, but I do surf WebMD a lot, so i'm pretty much a doctor...

 


dyed eggs ripe for finding


easter was a blast...an egg treasure hunt by grandma, way too many fun things in easter baskets, skateboarding at church, then...cheesecake.  lots and lots of cheesecake.  hey, we all celebrate Jesus in different ways!
my folks are wrapping up their time out here in socal...here's a few more beach pics from the week... 


Friday, April 18, 2014

God loves kittens and mondays

honestly, I was just about to put up a post about dancing.  but...then my mom reminded me it's good friday, and I was...a little convicted.  like maybe I should wait to get all richard simmons on you and actually write about something that matters a little more...

i rarely talk about faith here.  I may mention it offhand, but it is sooo deeply personal.  and I am in general a non-cheesy person, so sometimes I find the generic yet true 'God is love!' 'Cast your cares!' phrases make me feel a little like elaine benes from seinfeld when she was annoyed by the woman who was all 'my fian-ceee...' (btw, if you don't get this reference, we can't be friends.)

but...they are all true.  every one of them.  kitten poster, whatever - God IS love.  God DOES care.  God IS.  when I read through the new testament about Jesus and the stuff He talked about when he was on earth, it's...really amazing. those words will change your soul, if you let it.

i don't know how it all works, frankly, but God has placed so many pivotal people and experiences in my life that it's almost overkill at this point ;)  like, ok I get it!  I KNOW you love me now!!  lol.  and yes, because 'the Bible tells me so', but also because I am SEEING it.  and have been my whole life.  I just have to remember to open my eyes.
 

the marvel of heaven and earth

just a quick pop-in...my folks are in town from Michigan, so we are spending lots of time at the coast!  here's a few pics from our laguna beach outing yesterday...

my baby.  ok, so he's 8yrs old now.  and basically a human tornado...
but I still have so much fun with this intense little climber...
this 12yr old cool cat was intent on seeing a whale out there...he said, 'even if we saw a dead one wash up on shore that'd be cool...'  would it?
aaand...what am I looking at?  off into the distance...but not at the ocean, which is totally behind me, lol...